The Lines

Between the, straddling the, draw the, toe the, behind the, on the front……  lines.

So I mentioned last week that I’ve had quite a bit of anxiety going on for a few weeks, and while this past week wasn’t quite so bad, I’m still struggling to give it up to the Lord.  Sunday morning at church was kind of interesting and funny in a way- the Sunday school class I’ve been attending has been on budgeting and managing finances, using a few different Christian “money guys” such as Larry Burkett and Dave Ramsey.  This class was the last of them, and it was on writing out your budget.  Of course Pastor used an example of income and expenditures from his own years ago, but the problem was what his income was higher by a few hundred more than my monthly income, and his expenses were less even including stuff I never buy or have because I can’t afford it. So it kind of set my anxieties on edge again wondering how I’m ever going to make it.

Enter 2nd Service message…

Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?  Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?

Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith? Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.  Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
Matthew 6:24-34

A few people know why I have my anxieties about where I am right now, but it’s funny that when I first moved here, I was often reminded about this verse when I’d see birds land on the railing or steps outside. I thought yes, God even provides for them, He will provide for me and the boy too.

Back to all those lines mentioned above- I forgot to add the thin one.  I’ve had this on my mind quite a while actually, about how thin a line can be when it comes to trying to live according to a Biblical worldview while still living in the world.

How does one balance on that line without falling off?

There is a line between faith and preparation- whether it’s like Sunday’s message (which I needed a reminder of) between budgeting for necessities and faith that God will provide, or between knowing that God will provide, yet considering that other’s who are just as faithful end up jobless, homeless or worse. Trying to stay on the line to where you don’t compare yourself to others, as God has His plans and reasons for all of us, and to where you Trust Him with what He has planned for you. How to be content and grateful with God’s provisions without crossing the line over to wanting something different, or how to keep the line between the extreme longing for the next life while having to live faithfully the life we’re in now.

There are a lot of thin lines that we as Christians need to balance where we can live an abundant Christ like life and where we are prudent and wise about things.  Sometimes it’s too easy to be straddling that line, where one is double minded, which the Bible warns about as well,

A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.  James 1:8

Maybe that explains me a little.  But I don’t mean to be. I am trying to learn the difference between a lot of lines and letting God handle the things that are beyond my control or reach.  He has proven Himself over and over to me, all my life, but especially the last few years as I’ve had to learn how to live this ‘new’ life.  I have trusted in Him in all the ways I know how, but when I heard the message yesterday, I knew that the past little while I’ve slid over the line and let my anxiety dull my faith and trust that He is still in control, even when everything seems out of control.

I don’t mean to over analyze things, but sometimes it’s needed, just to remember and trust completely knowing that we don’t have to worry so much when He is so loving and faithful. I thank God for His patience and that He’s got it…

Have a blessed Monday all.