Why? Or, Why Not? That is the Question!

Contemplating the fact that I’m a high risk for blindness, thoughts have arisen which I want to record while I still see. I read of a Christian couple who suffered a tragedy. The grieving wife asked, “Why should this happen to us?” Her husband replied, “Why should it not happen to us?”

I earnestly, fervently, hope and pray that I do not go blind. What follows should not be construed in any way to mean that I am willing to be blind. (I hope God is listening to this.) Why should God allow me to go blind? Wrong question. Why should He not allow it? If blindness happens to me, it will be because it is part of His plan for my life. It can’t happen unless He allows it. It can’t be prevented if He intends it.

If God intends me to be blind, how can I possibly believe it’s for my benefit? Or at least, for someone’s benefit, a benefit that can’t be achieved any other way? I could probably write a book to answer that question.

“Because the Bible says so.” That’s true, and if that was the only reason I had, it would be enough. That’s where my youthful faith started – “Because God’s Word says so.” But I have a lifetime of experience to answer from, and I’d bet my entire bank account that many of you, probably all of you, have had similar experiences.

When I shoved God into the back of my mind for eight years after my baptism at nine years old, why didn’t God say, “You’ve had your chance. You aren’t living according to what you said. I’m finished with you”?

Thank You, Lord, for not rejecting me when I failed to live up to my profession of faith.

When I was fourteen years old, I caught equine encephalitis (sleeping sickness). From the pages of the Centers for Disease Control: “Most persons infected with EEEV [Eastern Equine Encephalitis Virus] have no apparent illness. Severe cases of EEEV … begin with the sudden onset of headache, high fever, chills, and vomiting. The illness may then progress into disorientation, seizures, or coma. EEE is one of the most severe mosquito-transmitted diseases in the United States with approximately 33% mortality and significant brain damage in most survivors. There is no specific treatment for EEE; care is based on symptoms.” https://www.cdc.gov/easternequineencephalitis/index.html

Mine was severe alright. I woke up in the middle of the night screaming from pain. Nothing helped. After the pain finally subsided the next day, I spent two weeks sleeping. I had to be awakened for necessities. When I walked back into Good Samaritan Hospital after coming out of it, the doctor who had diagnosed me did a double take. He told me, “Son, you don’t know how glad I am to see you walk in here. Two other boys came in here the same night you did with encephalitis. One of them is dead, and the other one will never walk again.”

Thank You, Abba, for fifty-three years of health and life since then.
When I was young, I drove as if I was training for Le Mans. A Christian, mind you. Some witness, huh? I kept it up until I was, I think, 24 years old. I wrecked a motorcycle, had many hair-raising experiences, and totaled a pickup truck. That was due to about three seconds of taking my eyes off the road. Too long a story to tell now, but I should have lost my left arm above the elbow in that one. I have just two tiny scars to remind me of that incident.

I’m left-handed. Thank You, Abba, for my left arm.

Why did God prevent me from wiping out someone’s family? Or myself? Why did He save my left arm? I certainly did not deserve any special consideration. A few special beatings, maybe, but not special protection.

Thank You, Abba, that I do not awaken from sleep plagued by nightmares of crippling guilt.

Could these things and many more be coincidence? Many people will think so. But I believe in the God of the Bible, the mighty Creator, Who created and orchestrates the galaxies. I don’t understand how He does that, but I believe it, so I don’t believe in coincidence, at least not for Christians.

If God is to be “blamed” for the “bad” things, is He not to be given credit for the good things also? Justice demands it, but more than that, when you are the recipient of God’s incredible protection and mercy, you have been given an indication of God’s character and intent toward you. God’s will is not something to be afraid of [he wrote with a trembling hand]. “Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” (Luke 12:7)

I’m going to flutter away for now. Tune in tomorrow, same time, same station, for another thrilling episode of “The Positive Heartbeat”.